STORY STARTER
Put your music player on shuffle and skip seven songs. The song it lands on is the title of your story or poem.
I Was Only Temporary
I was only
Temporary
I will always be
Temporary
I will come and go and
Temporarily
I will feel that I belong.
For so long
I have wanted to run away
Probably won’t ever see the day
But I have a guitar
And a book
And a backpack
And $35 in cash.
The actual _want_ of it is
Temporary in my mind
I love my family
And I love my band
And I love my library.
I spent a whole evening looking up bindings tips
That feeling (dysphoria?)
Is always temporary
Yesterday it felt worse
Maybe the first time I’ve truly not felt
That I belonged in my own body.
I tried a few and at first
I felt comfortable
But that comfort
Is only
Temporary.
Afterwards my back
Hurt.
I don’t know who I am
Anymore
I exist in a state of
Temporary
Nothing stays the same
I long to leave
I need to stay
I feel like
No one knows me
I feel
So goddamned lonely.
That loneliness
Is
**_Not
_**Temporary.
My existence
Can
Be.
I need
An
Escape.
I am only temporary.