I miss the way things used to be

When I could laugh and sing and life made me feel free.

Stars used to shine so bright.

I never used to fear the night.

But time goes by and your mind stalls.

They’ll say your wires crossed and this will be your downfall.

Just put your faith in the little blue pill.

And now it will all feel tranquil.

I wonder if my life is fake.

Those feelings shouldn’t have to be...

Make my bed, quick, wash my head

Make sure that all the pets are fed

Brush my teeth till my gums bleed

And hope my pee misses the seat

The clothes are washed, fresh pair of socks

“Hey wait a second, what’s that spot?”

Smell test a jacket from the basket

Smear deodorant on to mask it

I drag my ass across the grass

Convince myself “this too shall pass”

Weave through traffic, radio static

Shove down...

Silent steps through town

Chin tightly tucked, eyes pointed down, Cautious to draw a crowd

Blank faces, no names

Passing through an unknown sea for peace to be reclaimed

It all feels foreign

So hopeful to remain unseen and live life free again

Desires are shunned

For dreams die old and love grows cold when life’s lived on the run...

Each day a gift sent to the rift

To save them from the squalor.

A life I lure to spare the poor,

But never the white-collar.

The power, great, painless to take,

I never could abuse.

How could they know it’s time to go?

No, that’s for me to choose.

Now, there are those who dare oppose

My godly overseeing.

But it is them, I tell you, friend,

Who do all the deceiving.

Life in my hands, with it I pla...