Ringing ringing voices in your ear

What a desperate little boy

No one ever sees you

No one ever will

Ringing ringing voices in your ear

I am in control

You’re just a puppet

And I pull in the strings

Ringing ringing voices in your ear

You try to run and you try to hide

But there’s no where you can go

I’ll always be there

Ringing ringing voices in your ear

Oh poor sweet child

You’re ...

I close my eyes

And with a prayer

I am dunked underwater

Seconds seemed hours

Peace and warmth flooding

My skull like a cherry bomb

Euphoria more fulfilling

Than any high

The voices washing out of my ears

Tears draining out from my eyes

Ashes spilling from my lungs

Slits fading upon my wrist

I look up to see a star

Shining down with a loving smile

ready to take my hand

And for the firs...

(A/N: yet again something that has been sitting in my drafts trying to clear it out)

Ice cubes run down my spine

A thousand of steps

Equals only one

Miserable souls peer

Seeking a solace

In the weeds

Chowing down till they get high

Only for it to come crashing down

Animalistic screams

Bounce off the walls

More horrid than any crank

Broken soldiers wander about

Carrying the guilt and memori...

(A/N: I usually don’t write about love cause it’s hard to write about something you haven’t experienced so please give me feedback)

I slip into your embrace

My sorrows washing away with the tide

‘I love you’ you whisper softly in my ear

Though I could never understand why

My sorrows washing away with the tide

Peace flooding my mind

Though I could never understand why

You don’t cower like the...

Get into character

Put on a pretty smile

Fix your clothes

It is time to start the show

Put on a pretty smile

It’s okay they won’t know

It is time to start the show

Are you nervous or are you hungry

It’s okay they won’t know

You’re seconds away from throwing up

Are you nervous or hungry

But whatever you’re fine

You’re seconds away from throwing up

From the very little food you ate

B...

I’ve got a million different personalities

So go on just take your pick

Am I bubbly and girly

Or a sad emo chick

Just promise me you will be my best friend

Am I blonde or brunette?

Are my eyes green or blue?

I’m not Bella Poarch

The choice is up to you

Just promise me you will love me

I can be introverted if that’s what you want

Or maybe a social butterfly

I can be anything, anything ...

‘We’re not safe we were never safe’

I mutter psychotically

‘He’s here why is he always here?’

My knees are crushing my ribs

‘He knows he knows I know’

I am now soused in fear

THUMP!

‘Was that? No no it wasn’t just breath’

Inhale exhale inhale exhale

‘I’m good I’m safe I’m perfectly-‘

wham!

‘Ah shit oh god it’s him I know it’s him’

Back and forth back and forth

‘We’re not safe we were neve...

How could you to your own blood

“Because that’s life buddy”

But I thought we were different I thought we had something special

“Well then you’re a fool!”

“*looks down and in Batman voice* look we live in a gluttonous world I’m sorry but that’s the way it is”

Okay. But that’s DEFINITELY your final answer-

“Oh my gods will you shut up Esther I’m not buying you a freaking happy meal!”

ugh fi...

It’s like nobody hears me

Me myself and I that’s how it is

Is it sad? Yes but you get used to it

It just hurts to know that they would

Hate me if they knew

Knew of the fact that I am two people

People who will very few will accept

Accept their differences and their pride

Pride which is tucked away

Beneath my skin

Skin so broken and scarred I appear a

Beast

A Beast

Yep that’s probably righ...

Two sticky pieces of hell

So clear yet no one could see

What horrors lie within

They leave me yelling

Begging for mercy

I can hear them mocking me

Ugh so bitchy

I hate these freakin contacts...