I don’t like my sister

She isn’t very nice

She’s a bully

She teases me

She’s rude

She’s selfish

And she’s never cared for me she’s always the one to make me feel at my lowest

She makes it all about her

And I feel as though I should let her we’re twins but she’s better

She’s got more friends

She’s prettier

She’s just the dream kid but not the dream sister...

My girlhood began the first day I was told to sit with my legs crossed

Because it wasn’t very ladylike to sit with them open

But the boys.

Sprawled across the floor and covered in mud

Would always go unspoken

And the first time that I knew my girlhood meant weakness

Was when teachers needed help moving tables across a classroom

And asked if there were any strong boys to help

And dear not loo...

Home.

Home is were your ment to feel safe

Home is were your not ment to feel judged

Some people’s home is with friends

And others is with there family

I don’t have a home

I’m always pushed away

I’m always the one nobody want’s to stay

I have no were to go with thoughts going round

No one to tell so I just stress out...

I spent my whole life thinking love was something you had to earn,

Something you had to fight to get

And suffer to keep

Something that made you give up pieces of yourself for another human being.

But then you showed up and you reminded that love is easy

You showed me that it can walk into your life

On a Tuesday afternoon

And say "you I pick you"

Not because of who you are

Or what you do

But...

The monsters were never under my bed

Because the monsters were in my head.

I fear no monsters,

For no monsters I see.

Because all this time the monsters has been me....

The house.

The house that now stands sad and gloomy

Once stood happy and inviting,

This house had open doors for all,

People would come and go,

Normally staying for months at a time,

The people who came to the house seemed like nice people, but weren’t always as nice as they first were,

They would abuse the house and it’s welcoming feeling but still stay,

The house grew more damaged over time,

...

I know it’s back when I wake up and want to go back to sleep for another 12 hours,

I know it’s back when I have a heavy heart and empty mind,

I know it’s back when my hair that once felt silky and soft when it was swept perfectly when it was perfectly tucked bhind my ears is now in a messy bun,

I know it’s back when I start liking the feeling of an empty stomach more than a full one,

I know it’s b...

I’m stuck

I’m stuck here waiting for you just like I was before,

I wait for you to make up your mind,

Is it that hard for you to love me ?

I wake up everyday craving your attention but that doesn’t matter to you right?

I don’t cross your mind,

I really do wonder what would happen if I didn’t text you for a day, would you contact me first?

That’s a question that will never be answered because I can...

I thought friends were supposed to care

I thought they were supposed to help

Not rip

And tear ever last feeling

You had out

Not to have you crying rivers

On the floor

I thought they were ment to care

Not make you feel like you need to change

Be skinny

Be pretty

That’s all I feel like my friends say...

Fun can be anything

It could be playing games

To going to sleep but my

Type of fun is being alone

With no one to judge me...