I want to forgive you

I want to forget what you did

I dont know what to do

I feel like I did when I was a kid

Every night hurts so much

Every thought carries your shadow

A temporary relief with a touch

Is only enough to help me feel hollow

What could we have been

What could we have done

It feels like loving you is a sin

And I think I should run

Are there things you keep from me

Lik...

I remember your eyes

How they would look into mine

Deep and dark and full

Like looking into the sky

There I was

Falling up into the night

Like the entire world was mine

You poured your soul into me

And I was so full

So full of you and us and myself

Loving myself through your eyes

Finding me in your mind

Dancing in the kitchen

Like nobody was watching

Free from judgement

It felt like he...

A pendulum swings

The sun and the moon flirt

Above the world

A man stands atop a building

Looking deep into the veins

Of the city below

The emptiness between him

And all else

Pushing him back from the roofs edge

A formless force

like those moments between joy and sorrow

suspended in time

sometimes he feels like a collection of dust

an accidental form

looming in some corner

a regurgitation...

There is nothing so sickening

As a child’s tears in the night

Soon skin starts thickening

And fears lose their might

But all the space in between

All the pain so formative

Whilst begging to be seen

And not wanting to live

You heard me singing

My desperate solitary lullabies

All the while I was dreaming

I could disappear into the sky

Here I was drowning

Thrashing in my own mind

Viol...

Look into my eyes

Tell me what you see

Look through and through

Look into me

A black star intangible

The vortex in my mind

Sweetly unavoidable

Gravity between him and I

Let the blackness swallow you up

Know what I really am

And if you look deep enough

Will you want to look again

Escape into me

Fall into the expanse

Set my soul free

I feel like you can

My supermassive sadness

My joyful ...

A young girl hopes to find her prince one day

Someone to hold her, to save her

Oh to be a child again, to dream and to play

Dreams are for sleeping some might say

But there must be something deeper

Something more than living day by day

In that silent, empty bed you lay

Oh the curse of a faithless sleeper

The dreams you weave continue to fray

On painful nights you begin to pray

Begging God t...

A push and a push and a push

Rubber soles kiss rough concrete

And I’m gliding

The wind gripping and pulling my hair

My skateboard moving faster and faster

In that moment

It feels like all the laws of physics

Find perfect harmony within me

Balance, acceleration, inertia, force

Like an airplane going faster and faster

Before disappearing into the sky

Leaving everything else behind

It all f...

Look up

Into the air

At the stars

So far, so so so far

Reach up

Can you feel it?

The pull

The energy

The yearning

for something more

Feel up

Into the night

The blackness

The dreamers vacuum

Do you feel your heart stretching

Into space

Into nothing

Into the stars

Hope

Hope because that’s all you can do

Hope between the space

The space

Between the stars and you

Love

Love

Love

L...

Who the hell are you?

To kiss me like that 

Every time you turn away

Feels like you take it right back

But that glint in your eyes

Reflecting all the lights

Like stars into the sky

Reaching towards me in the night

Who the hell are you?

To kiss her like that

Are there ever times

You wish you could take it back

Why can’t you look me in the eyes

Is it because of all the lies

The apathy you disguise

...

It hurts

The rot

I feel it all crumbling away

My heart

My gut

The lines on my face sink

Into the empty inside of me

Like a balloon

Leaking air

Getting small

Sinking lower day by day

Why did you fill me up

Why did you let me fly so high

Only to watch me fall

And deflate

I should have popped

When I was still full

In a glorious boom

Shiny rubber stretched thin

So delicate

So vulnerable...