im not lazy.

god, you have no right in calling me that.

stop calling me lazy.

you don’t know how hard it is to just get up.

to eat.

take a shower.

brush my teeth.

you don’t know how much energy it takes to keep myself from crying when i’m around other people.

god, i don’t know why i flinch away from people when they put theyre hand out for a fucking high five.

because i never got beat

but ik people who have.

i know i need to get a spine.

toughen up.

suck it up.

shut up.

grow up.

realize that life has never been worth it,

and get used to a routine

let it repeat

over

and over

and over

and over

and over.

until i die.

damn. i forgot to say thank you.

for fucking nothing.

how about you try to understand all the hell ive gone through. and next time think before you say something.

if you were in my shoes you’d fall the first step.

im not lazy.

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