The one I loved was hurting me inside

He was perfect but he only gave attention when he wanted too

He doesn’t know how to process emotions as moving made sure he couldn’t get attached

He was perfect if he put in the effort

He was perfect if he let it out

He is perfect but not to me right now

He knows it’s a problem

He sobbed when I broke up with him but buried the rest since he doesn’t know how to process it

I want him to know it’s okay

It wasn’t an easy decision for me but his lack of emotion and attention was killing me

I don’t know if I made a mistake

I was asking for the bare minimum

He would meet it and exceed when he wanted too

He held the door open today

A meet up where we would give stuff back but he doesn’t believe gifts of any kind should be given back

So I keep my jewelry and his sweatshirt

I don’t know if I’ll find someone again but we are still friends

If he changes for himself to a man he is proud of

I will sure get him back

I have my own issues

I need reassurance

I don’t need a mind reader I just need an excessive carer

So now I’ve cried and cried

I missed my chance for one last hug

I don’t know if I’ll get it again

He cares, I know he can be who I want

But that won’t happen

He lives for himself

So he will change for himself

So I’ll wait

But now I’m not in pain

For the most part

I love you L

Now I’ll wait to see if you’ll become one who I will willingly give my love too.