**_*TW: SH (self harm)! If this topic triggers you, please don’t read the following. Your mental state and health matters!*_**

A teacher says to me

“You should have been listening!”

_I was but I didn’t understand!_

My mind shouts,

But I don’t speak.

My throat tightens,

It feels like I can’t breathe.

_Just, don’t cry._

I hold back the tears

And blink rapidly.

_You went down _

_8 whole point _

_From last time!_

Another voice

In my mind

Speaks.

_You friends are just faking _

_Still having faith in you. _

_They’ll leave you _

_Just like she did!_

_She left because she _

_Couldn’t deal with all_

_Your problems,_

_Clean up your act _

_And drag the knife across the _

_Flesh colored background!_

__

I think about what the voice said,

It can’t be so bad?

I shake my head, no,

I can’t. __

__

_Oh, you are so useless. _

_You only won that writing contest _

_Out of pity. _

__

I want to deny what they say,

But I fear I believe them.

_Your the reason things have changed!_

_Maybe you should give yourself _

_The pain you deserve!_

__

The temptation is killing me!

“I am falling to their demands,”

I wisper as I stare.

I stare at the red liquid flowing

Down my legs.

Oh, the pain,

It’s so… comforting?

_No, you can’t cut yourself!_

_Why did you listen?_

__

The first voice returns.

“The temptation was to strong,

It pulled me in like a whirlpool.

I… I’m sorry!”

Tears pour down my face

As I use tissues and bandages

To clean myself up.

Why? Why did I fall to their words?

***If you feel this way please tell someone. People care about you and love you! I love you! **Have a wonderful day!*