(Kinda had a rough day so Ima go to bed after this cuz I’m tired and sad😃 Hope you have a great day! Btw when I say “nobody” I mean no one in my family because my friends notice everything 😼🧚‍♀️)

Dad

Never

Noticed

Anything.

If I crocheted a new bag,

Mom would have to say something first.

If I got hurt and said nothing,

No one said anything.

Mom noticed

A few

Things.

Like, when I didn’t put my clothes away

Or

I waited till last minute to do schoolwork.

No one noticed

The cuts on my legs

Nor

The time I accidentally burned myself

Nor

When I didn’t eat just to see if they’d noticed.

I feel like a ghost,

Only noticed when I fucked something up.

I’m a burden,

You’ve said it yourself.

I’m tired of having to

Mess up to get attention.

I’m tired of no one in my family

Checking in on me to

Make sure I’m okay.

I know I made a promise

And I won’t break it,

But I kinda wish

I could hurt myself in an obvious place

To see if you’d notice or care.

I don’t think you would…