I am not sure

The last time

I felt

_Normal_

Matter of fact

what is

_normal_

anyway?

I am always in pain

Thoughts never stop

going through my brain

It never STOPS

My mind and my body

they ache

they creak

they scream for mercy

What is _normal_?

Is is calm?

Is it quiet?

Is it nice?

I really want to know

what _normal_ feels like

because i dont know

the last time i felt _normal_

Not since I was diagnosed

but no one understands

that i didnt cause it

No one gets

that sugar

wasnt the issue

and that i have a dead organ inside

I havent felt normal

not since My body decided to panic

And my sanity started to flee

Not since

I was tormented

By people my same age

That made me hate all people

One in the same

Not since I

Realized life isnt fair

And never will be

Not since my body

starting hating me

even though

I already hate myself

I dont know what _normal_ feels like

ever since normal

started to feel like

nothing at all