This is monumentous

Four years of devoted studies

Good grades

Gaining skills

Creating a network

Made some friends

not many

but that’s ok

I put my blood, sweat, and tears

into this

Mostly sweat and tears

Then why does it feel like this?

I should be excited

Or sentimental

Or something positive

I’m relieved that it’s over

I had a good time

but not a fun time

Finally no more homework

No more tests

I’m scared that I haven’t done enough

I didn’t do an internship or work

It quickly became about survival

I’m anxious for what’s to come

Will I find a job?

One that I like?

Is it even possible?

I don’t know what to do

I thought I would find myself

in these four years

I thought I would know

what to do with my life

That’s how everyone frames it

It’s what everyone expects

I’m not lost

I’m not found either

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(Depending on where some of you live or what time you read this, I will have graduated! For me as I write this, I have about 9 hours until then. I think college, specifically right adter college, isn’t talked about enough. There are such big changes and fears that come from it. Especially with how the work environment is right now.

I just wanted to say thanks since I found this app during college and it has been such a positive thing in my life. Every one of you inspire me!)