I wish I never felt this way,

Turmoil ruins my perfect day,

I wish I never felt so sadly,

When remembering no one’s next to me.

Why does it choose to erupt in me,

This sudden feeling of jealousy?

I wish I never longed to be the same,

Longing to play a copy’s basic game.

I wish I never forgot to embrace,

My skills, my style, and even my face.

Why would I feel overwhelming envy,

Over something so regular, friendly?

I wish I never want to stare,

When there’s someone like me right there.

I wish I never second guessed,

Throwing myself to the test.

Is it annoyance, want or sadness,

That wrecked my mind to a mess?

I wish I never want to wear my best,

Constricting myself with unneeded stress.

I wish I could never feel this way,

At any moment or time of the day.

Am I petulant or desperate?

Is there a way I can help it?

I wish I never enter this path again,

I wish the thoughts and questioning will soon end,

I hope I won’t take long to figure out,

How to answer these queries with no doubt.

(I wrote this really late last night so bear with me :) )