“i-

i love

her”

the words slipped

from my mouth

i was too eager

to say them,

to get them off

my back.

for they haunted

every thought and

breath through

every living

day.

i can’t get it

out and now

that i’ve said

it to you,

i cannot take

it back-

but oh how i wish

i could!

because now the

world knows and

now the world

shall make it

harder to love

her!

no wonder she ranted about

the ex she still

loves, the day

after i said it-

no wonder she still

loves him!

it’s obvious,

i should’ve seen it before:

the longing

the shorts

everything became

about him because

i don’t bring her

a real smile,

he does!

and i don’t bring

her “best self”-

of course it’s him!

though do i really want

her best self?

because i find

her perfect,

even when makeup

drips down her

face and tears

stain those cheeks

and the soul you

hide and secrets

that rot within

you.

so i guess

i do love

her don’t i?

when all is

said and done,

the world can know

my love for her!

but even if i

let the universe

see that love deep

within my chest,

would i let her

see that love,

because it isn’t his.

no,

it’s not his,

so i guess

it doesn’t

matter

to her