“Gosh, I have to stop getting blood all over these hardwood floors…”

all I have to do is keep war out of my head.

How should I hold this …to make it look less like a gun? it’s red, it’s an evidence of my thoughts that everybody is going to notice! It’s more of a threat, I don’t mean it like that, but that’s just what everyone sees. Should I hold it towards me? uff, I’m afraid now…it’s weighing heavily in my hands, an unnatural hold will have everyone’s eyes on me and my…my, oh, I’ve gotta keep war out of my head! All heavy looking, am I so wrong, I don’t match, …I-I should be gone, before anyone notices this war in my head.

I should be gone, I should be gone, somebody help me!, I can’t go anywhere attracting all looks on me! It’s all about these colours, no one wears such flags anymore…gosh, what am I thinking! I gotta keep war out of my head!

“hey, what’s your behaviour about?”

They doesn’t know. What’s all this about. Or they know, the-the war, evidence, flags, they…they do. What’s with my show off?

“It’s nothing, a phase of mine, it’ll go!” ofc I lied. I won’t confirm what they could possibly be thinking. The war, it’s just everywhere! Gosh, I gotta keep war out of my head!

Life is no actual fight. You don’t need to prove yourself.