I’m trying. I keep trying.

I have albums written, multiple.

I just… I don’t even know what’s holding me back by now, I just haven’t been able to get it done.

Maybe it’s bc my songs get too dark. Too true. Too real.

Maybe it’s bc I don’t want to get in trouble when I release music & start outing people.

Maybe…

But there’s too many what-if’s,

Too many f**king doubts.

I- omygod. I have vocals for two songs literally recorded. I just haven’t been able to find instrumentals…

I had a Halloween song on track in the making, & then shit went down.

I had to take a break from my friend group. I fell into a hole that for a while I just wallowed in, kept afloat by my friends & the closest trusted adults in my life, but I kind of just sat in that hole.

Created a playlist called Therapy. Then it got too dark for my liking, & I created Happy Therapy. A little more hopeful.

& slowly but surely, I was lifted out of the hole by my friends & everyone; my family didn’t really know abt it, only my cousins, & I told my dad the most basic stuff.

My point is, there’s a ton of shit that everyone has to deal w/.

Maybe that’s why I still can’t get this done… that, & there’s no deadline set on it.