My life what is it and why...?

Why am I like this.?

Questions no one knows not even me?.

WHY JUST TELL ME WHY?

the cuts heal fast for me why don't yours?

Who do I?..

The word why is different then it was 4 years ago . Why and no mean different things but have similar vibes and neither I want to say it's not like I would if I had a choice.

Yes- seems forced a plain yes-do you care?-do i

Overthinking seems fun when you dont-oh id be so smart my life would be eas-JUST SHUT UP ALREADY WHY JUDGE?!? WHY

"They weren't judging"

Sighs, why, no, judging, overthinking same vibe different words different meanings

WHY-it can be a question or response it can be annoying. Hell questions are annoying, who am I kidding so am I.

SIGHING-Its like nails on chalk board. It hurts internally to hear it seems similar to me.

NO-again can be used as a response it can also feel... targeting.

JUDGING-Your probably judging right now,me, this story, my writing skills. Judging can mean good things too, like "he judged your appearance and said "you look nice today"" I would dream someone say that to me but that will never happen.

OVERTHINKING-Its me in one word some nights I just don't sleep from it sometimes it get interesting like thinking about the inventor of stuff animals and would other people making stuff animals be copy right? Then it turns into is everything copyright?why are we even alive why are there stars? Who invented music i thank them for so much. Overthing sucks and it can be like does she like me? Does he, do i?....

.Some nights I think about it life is truly like the backrooms .backrooms is she brain rotted?

No i was truly just thing it's like you have hard time and easy one some people get to the end some people die from something someone or themselves the end is heaven or hell. Were you playing fail and square or cheating using the right wall method isnt cheating it's just basic knowledge from knowing to to much. That can get u in trouble to you can find ways to cheat but is it worth it. There is so many other ways I've thought of that simulates to life but that was the one that stuck with me

But maybe the answer to my questions was her. Was it was it not we will never know bit my answer is yes I love her she's keeping me alive from her being alive.its like a swing, you can only hold on for so long til you die but think about what has been keeping you up for so long.My mask is slipping... because she's my support to hold on tighter so she pulls it off as I close my eyes and dream.

MY DEAR SUPPORT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DONT HURT BECAUSE OF ME OR THE BLADES I LOVE YOU JUST KNOW THAT.