If only I were stronger I could lift the world up high If only I were kinder You would be fine If only I were smarter I wouldn't have to lie But I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not I'M NOT I'M NOT STRONG I CAN BARELY LIFT A FINGER WHEN SOMEONE NEEDS HELP I'M NOT KIND THERE'S A REASON YOUR ALWAYS BUSY WHEN I ASK TO HANG OUT I'M NOT SMART AND SHE THINKS IT'S A JOKE WHEN SHE CALLS ME DUMB 'CAUSE IT NOT LIKE THEY'RE STRONGER WHEN THE DON'T HELP ME EITHER IT NOT LIKE THEY'RE KINDER WHEN THEY IGNORE ME AND IT'S NOT LIKE THEY'RE SMARTER WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN Notice Me Cry And now I'm blaming them If only I had friends Who called me A friend

To my past self, I hope you know you'll be fine Just keep moving Don't give in You've always been good at that You're dreams will come true As long as you go after them Make a plan So when they say it won't happen You can prove them wrong Also Stop being pressured To like certain people Girls are better I promise You'll go through hard times But you'll find people Who go through hard times Just like yours And you'll help each other Because That song doesn't speak for everyone And you'll lose people But for every love you lose You'll gain a few more And though the hurt Will always stay It will heal a bit Each night So cry yourself to sleep Because people need to cry Let you friends and family help You can't keep your innocence But you can remember it You are loved, 🖤💙🩵🤍

𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭 𝓲𝓼 𝔀𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓪𝓷𝓭 I looked down at the world below me. Destroyed. Demolished. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓰𝓻𝓸𝔀 Not a single soul in sight. Everything was gone. There was nothing left to rule over. 𝓘 𝓾𝓼𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓯𝓪𝓲𝓽𝓱 No one to think of. No one to talk to. What now? Do I live like this forever? Until I perish? 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓘 𝓻𝓪𝓷 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓱𝓸𝓹𝓮 There's nothing left. Nothing to live for. Nothing to wish for, dream for, fight for. 𝓘 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓲𝓽'𝓼 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓪𝓾𝓵𝓽 I never should have done this. Never. 𝓘'𝓶 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮 Why did I do this? If I wanted to rule I need people to rule over. I can't call myself the best if there's no competition left. Why did I do this? What was the point? Why should I even be here anymore? I ruined anything that could have been waiting for me. This will be the last view of my old home forever, I guess. No point in staying. 𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭 𝓲𝓼 𝓪 𝚠𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍 (Thanks for reading (≧▽≦)!)

We all look the same in the dark. I always see the same blotchy smile as if you care. Talking in the dark because if we turn the lights on your mom will tell us to go to bed. You tell me something. I nod my head and make a sound so it seems like I'm listening. The more you talk the more I know. I know you want to be with someone else. I'm not your first choice of a friend. I sob a bit. You think I chuckled because you said something funny about whoever your talking about now. The dark masks my quiet crying. You can't see but there are tears running sideways as a lay on the pillow you let me borrow. I know I'm your least favorite. I know you'd rather be with your true friends instead of me. Just have to pretend I'm oblivious to this for one more year. Then you don't need to have me trailing behind you. 𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓴𝓼 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 🖤💙🩵🤍

I don't think I ve ever been happy. Everyone says they have. They could give me an example, too. But I can't remember the last time I felt happy. I don't know what friendship is. What's the true definition of a friend? Is it some you like, so one you've known forever? Someone who you trust? I don't know. I can't feel friendship if no one makes it happen I know what a smile feels like, though. I can recognize the way the corners of my lips rise a bit. I recognize the little beating in my chest when I think something might work out. A smile disappears quickly, but it's still there. I would like to say thank you to everyone on this app, y'all are so talented and awesome and kind. Y'all make me smile. Smile for me, okay? 🖤💙🩵🤍

No one can hear it But it's definitely there 'Cause he tilts his head back To keep out the tears He says he doesn't feel But between the lines, they read 'Cause he's skipping every meal Shouts a silent scream "Wake up" "Pretend it's all a dream" "It's not a problem" "Just a silent scream" And she wakes up Looks at her reflection She hates them Sucking in her stomach Why does she hurt It on the tip of her tongue They're make it worse But she doesn't want to bug them **"Wake up"** **"Pretend it's all a dream"** **"It's not a problem"** **"Just a silent scream"** **They don't realise** **People hear them scream ** **When they close their eyes** **They think they all are mean** **And they can't help it** **But people can help them** **No one can heal it** **But the can't run from their problems** **"Wake up"** **"it's all just a nightmare"** **"You're not a problem"** **"Dont worry I'm right here"** **** **But they still think** **** **** **** **"Wake up"** **"Pretend it's all a dream"** **"It's not a problem"** **"Just a silent scream"** **** Just a silent scream Idk why I see it bolded. Don't know how that happened lol. Also this is a song, not really a poem.

I don't think they like me. If they did they would let me come. Let me in. Into the inside jokes, into the secrets. But I'm on the outside of all of them. What if I wasn't,though? What if they liked me. I would know the secret, understand the jokes. I wouldn't feel like every time I can't hear what they're saying, they'd be talking about me. Alas, they hate me. I know they do. So I don't try anymore. Let them talk crap about me. Let them cal me weak. I won't let it get to me, because I only have one more year until I meet new people. Maybe they won't hate me. At least for the first three years. Maybe I'll find my place. Until then, all I have to do is act. I like to act. Hello! Ifyou want to read earlier writings, my of profile is Jay. (I'm following myself lol) so u can't read those if u want. (They kinda suck btw)

𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨. I close my eyes 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **I need to sleep** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **Go to sleep! ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **Why isn't it working?! ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **Mom, shouldn't it work? ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **You said it would help. ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **It's helped before. ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **But lately... ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **Never mind. ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **These thoughts don't matter, right? ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **They just keep me awake. ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**, **𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨**. ** **** **I need sleep. ** **** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**** **** 𝘋𝘪𝘯𝘨**** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **Wrote this at 2:18 am. I need sleep. ** **** **** **** ****