Lord that’s all I want to be —

but the distractions, they—

surround me,

occupy me.

I don’t hold myself accountable —

I let them drown me,

pull me away from You.

Life tries to humble me,

and I’m stumbling,

damn near spiraling.

I succumb to the weight of it,

and in the middle of that I’m asking —

Where are You?

My soul aches away,

my heart is being changed

in a different direction.

I ...

(Her POV):

Glaring into those deep brown eyes that I loved so much, the edge of my blade kissed against his neck. A lump tugged at the back of my throat — my heart once filled with love and life now trapped in irreparable torment.

_I had to do it_ — I told myself, _I needed to choose my people, protect _**_my_**_ people. Right?_

Liar. That’s what I am. I’ve been clinging to the idea that I ne...