Broken. Terrified. Baffled. Devastated.

How can I convey

Everything I’m feeling inside

My rights. My future.

I can see it all crumbling

Blowing away like dust in the wind

As an orange man laughs

But it’s not funny

Why is empathy

So hard to comprehend?

Why is it so impossible

To take off your shoes

And step into mine

For just 5 minutes

The tears. The cries. The agony. The anguish.

You turn your bac...

It was you

From the first time I saw you

It was you

From the first time you kissed me

It was you

From the first time you held me

It was you

When I looked into your eyes

When I held your hand

When I traced your lips

It was always you

Even when life seemed uncertain

Even when my world was crashing down

For me,

It was always you

Even when we ended

I tried to ignore it

But it was still you

When I move...

When I say

Be safe

What I mean is

Please wear your seatbelt

And drive the speed limit

Remember to look both ways

Before crossing the street

Bundle up in a scarf and coat

When it’s cold outside

Remember to drink water

Staying hydrated every day

Make sure you take a snack along

Before heading out of the house

Get enough sleep each night

You deserve more rest

Keep a bottle of Advil in your car

Don’t ...

I’ve gotten so tired

Of reminding you

To remember me.

I want you

To want to

Tell me about your day

The mundane moments

And the exciting ones.

I want you

To want to

Message me first

Ask me more than just

How my day has gone.

I want you

To want to

Call me immediately

When something big happens

Or message me

When you have a weird dream.

All I seem to do

Is try and fail

To grab

Your attention.

But if...

The mere thought of of you

Can put me in a chokehold

It can take me down easy

1, 2, 3.

I don’t even bother

Putting up a fight

I let it overtake me

I’m down for the count

And yes it hurts

It’s a beating every time

But I live for the pain

So I’ll still get in that ring

With my thoughts of you

And let them take me out...

I’m not waiting

For a knight in shining armor.

I saved myself a long time ago.

I do not need someone to “complete me”.

I am whole alone.

But sometimes

I just want

A weirdo who will go on adventures with me

Someone who will twirl me around the kitchen

Who will run the mundane errands with me

And kiss me passionately

When I least expect them to

Someone who can gaze deep into my eyes

Before making ...

Stop pretending

I can’t deny it anymore

It would be obvious to

Anyone

With an ounce of common sense

That I am not important to you

Why do I insist

On imagining that I am

I think about you when I’m awake

And I dream of you while I sleep

Every notification

My heart still cries out

“It might be him this time!”

But inevitably when I look

It hardly ever is.

We used to talk

All day long

About anything

...

I can feel you

When the clock says 11:11

And I make a wish

I can feel you

When I’m speeding over railroad tracks

And my car flies off the ground

I can feel you

When I’m listening to a powerful song

And the goosebumps race all down my arms

I can feel you

When my cat is purring on my stomach

And she decides to knead biscuits on my chest

I can feel you

When I take a deep breath

And let a guided medit...

Sometimes I think

About the things I wish

I’d already achieved

Having a house

Renting or owning

I was never picky

But I know that’s a reality

That will never come

Not in our economy.

Having a successful career

Or at least doing a job I liked

But I have never experienced either

Working to simply get by

Never anything to be passionate about.

Having a bank account full of savings

Thousands on retaine...

I have such love for you

It’s almost overwhelming at points

I care so much for you

The feeling is all consuming

I feel such safety with you

The relief is staggering

Every piece of me

Longs for every bit of you

Sometimes I feel so deeply for you

I think my heart is going to burst

All of these feelings

I don’t know what to do with

Because I know

You don’t feel anywhere near the same...