In the dim entertainment room I leaned against the door frame with a wine glass in my hands, untouched. Soft voices hummed on my left and right, harmonising with the autumn storm that orbited the outlying house. The fire kept us warm that night. But your strong features, coated in light from the hearth kept my heart ablaze.

You sat behind the piano, eyes on the keys, and when you mindlessly start...

“I’m scared,”

I whispered

So he holds me

And I find peace under his kisses

Don’t want to drown in fear

I always say,

“Do it scared”

You’ll only grow that way

But I worry our hearts won’t take it

The past creeping up and clawing my brain

My shoulders feeling held down

All my nerves in pain

Will his tears flood like a sea town disaster?

Will he wither in disgust?

Will we both be too scared?

But i...

Building castles in my head, I had always been a dreamer

I could make decisions during wishes, intense emotions and even dreams in fever

Leading with my body, my soul, and my heart

Subtlety and realism for me were simply never in the cards

I followed the arts, the humanistics and the cultures

Reasonable proprieties felt like being swept away by a big scary volture

Ambitions deemed unrealistic by ...

Never have I seen someone so radiant like the sun in a foreign place

An eternal sun embrace

Gold follows her

My sister, my voyageur

Coming to her feels like arriving safe at the shore

I wish I had entered this land way before

I wish I had been beside her during her tales of folklore...

We laughed and shared secrecies like school girls on the floor

I considered you my confidante for life, but oftentimes my decisions are poor

Gossiping and partying for years, I devoted myself to a friendship with you

But love from me will never fill your father’s angry shoes

You got a boyfriend, as unkind and rude as the man of your dreams

Criticism was labelled envy, but your stories and advice s...

In another valley, the terrain got even rougher, tall mountains reaching the clouds that were coloured of weathered stones and the occasional bush or moss that found a way to live in the dangerous inhabitable slopes. While the sun was warm and pleasant on my skin in the previous valley, a dark cloud warningly hung above us, the tops clouded with mist, and the mountains ahead invisible with grays. ...