*taps mic* Hi- Hi?

*clears throat*

First of all I wanted to say I'm very grateful for all of you coming today.

*silence*

Uhm. Okay I know you guys want me to give you the big answer - what's the meaning of life? Why are we here? What's the purpose of any of this?

*silence*

I can only tell you - you need to find something that resonates with you. It's not about finding a purpose. Some people believ...

I lit up first

I was glowing

I saw you reaching for me

But I didn't know if what I was seeing was an illusion

You found her

Glowing brightly

She glew more and more

Because you were reaching for her

After I hid my glow

I turned of.

Silently.

I know the only reason you saw her glow

Was because she was glowing for me

But all just because I hid my glow.

I hid that beautiful light.

And when you k...

21. November

Hoe can he just be so unbothered about everything. Mishu my cat. I can see the way he just exists. Nothing is stressing him out. He's not trying to get anywhere. He's just enjoying the mystical ride that life offers. He doesn't think about what he'll do in two hours. He only thinks about what he wants to do in the present. Completely grounded. Completely aware of its surroundings. It'...

The little metal-lamp keeps flickering. I give it a little slap to get it to stop. It flickers two more times and switches off. I drop my head and hold it with my hands. It's been a long day. Working at a bar is not for the weak.

That's why I quit today. Why you might ask. I don't really know psychologically at which point my brain thought to itself "yeah this is it I'm leaving this hell-hole". ...

an empty room

four walls that feel tight

claustrophobia

I am really small

the walls are big and black and menacing

they tower up upon me and whisper

"......."

so intimidating with no words

but I can hear it as loud as a scream

they move closer and closer

crowding up around me

and I am so small and small

just shacking and trembling.

on the table in the corner, I see a glass of water falling. ...