I’m sweating and nervous.

My body feels cold yet burns.

I can feel my stomach as it twists and churns.

Whether it’s in reality or metaphorically,

I can feel you deep in my heart.

The same one you’ll rip apart.

I shouldn’t be letting you get so close.

I should be running away.

Not letting you lead me astray.

The things I feel for you are more fear than love.

Being near you makes it hard to bre...

It comes in all shapes and forms.

In flowered plants.

In the rain and storms.

Its twists and changes.

New trends and old looks.

And it expands and diminishes its ranges.

When I was natural, the look was plastic.

So I stuck needles and plastics in me.

I didn’t stop until the change was beyond drastic.

The trend turned into sharp noses.

So I cut my button nose until I couldn’t anymore.

The tip...

If only

If only I could differentiate love from lust

That everyone didn’t see sex as a must

If only

If only the world was white or black

Maybe it would be clearer who would stab my back

If only

If only it was easier to recognize pain

Instead of only confusing it for gain

If only

If only our bodies didn’t mean our worth

Or how much power we have controlled by birth

If only

If only beauty stand...

I come here every day.

No matter if it’s raining,

No matter if it’s pouring.

Every morning it looks the same.

No matter who’s there,

No matter if they stare.

But…it’s different today?

It looked so unique and free.

I just wish it was me.

That’s until I realized…

That beautiful creature was you.

And from then my feelings only grew.

You were breathtaking.

Like a swan, you were graceful.

Like th...

It felt so real, yet so magical!

You made my life seem colorful

With your sweet and loving words

Your voice more beautiful than the song of a bird

With your soft and gentle touch

That I always wonder why they make me feel so much

Your presence fills all my senses

And they make me drop all defenses

My feelings for you feel so strong

How could this ever be wrong?

I would rip my heart from my ch...

The day has finally come.

The sun starts to rise as the birds start to hum.

I can hear their melody,

Like a well-written symphony.

Yet with all this beauty, there is pain.

Yet with all this happiness, I feel no gain.

This was supposed to be my special day.

So much I even had to pray.

Yet his secrets are starting to uncover.

His addiction, his true self, and his lover.

All in the face of my famil...

Before I used to be scared

No I really don’t care

Before I used to repeat the same nightmare

Now it’s like you were never even there

I wish I could talk to old me

I wish I could help her see

See what you really are

That your not a terrifying monster the color of tar

That your just a stupid shadow under my bed

That from the beginning it was all in my head

That your were nothing but an ugly fantasy...

I’ll never forget!

The tradition you started since the day we met.

You never missed a day.

Your timing as perfects as a beautiful sunshine ray!

A beautiful bouquet of red roses.

The scent so strong it filled our noses.

If I were to ever define love in one smell.

It would be fresh roses with a bit of your cologne that you can barely tell.

You’d buy 12 but would always keep one.

I never knew why and...

I look at the door

I look at the floor

It’s all covered in red!

I look at the stairs

I’m scared of their stares

Will I make it out alive?

They look at me hungry

With their rumbling tummy’s

Should I say my last goodbyes?

With their red eyes

Let like a demon in disguise

And their claws for hands?!

With their big smiles

That just look so vile

I’m frozen in my spot!

I’m so terrified

I want to ru...

While chasing your ghost I became one myself

Caring for my body like a discarded book on dusty shelf

I forgot about me only thinking of you

And you know all I’m saying is true

You had left a long time ago

And since then to another man I could never say Hello

You will and always have been my only one

And after you my love story is forever done

No more seasons for my show

No more presents for you wi...