How did I get stuck in this mess?

First of all I was only supposed to have ONE relationship, now I have two?

God relationships suck, especially two.

But at least I have two of everything, two birthdays, two cuddle buddies, and even two credit cards I can use when they let me, which is all the time.

So I guess those are the perks of a love triangle...

This was the night.

it was going to be the longest night ever,

know why? It's the night I'm ending things.

People always say not to do it and they say "people care about you" but how do you know their telling the truth? You don't. But I'm fucking done with life, and I can't help but think that I deserve this pain an I deserve to die.

But people say time will get better and my mental health wil...

life is like a sharp stick,

it pokes you until you can't take it anymore

but that's how life works right?

life doesn't let you have it easy

but that's the thing, life isn't fair

meaning it doesn't give it easy...

Old memories that you wish to forget.

Times that were easier.

When you come home to a place that never felt like home.

Memories that continue to haunt you in life, even when your older.

People tell you to forgive and forget, but it's really never that easy.

They never know how hard it is to forget the abuse, the lies, the life you never wished for.

But once they live it, they finally realize...