I have a purpose

Because You got me home safe

I have a purpose

Because You chose me to help others

I have a purpose

Because You allow me to make people smile

I have a purpose

Because You created me in your image

I have a purpose

Because it’s in Your will

I have a purpose

Because I’m not here for no reason

I have a purpose

Because I am a child of God...

I can see my recovery,

Lingering in the near distance

So close, yet so far

I try to reach it with persistence

I sprint, I claw, I fight with the rules

Engrained in my head

I try to hide from the behaviors

That keep me from being well fed

The finish line, almost tangible

Comes into view

I stay on track, I do everything right

I break my chains in two

Is this really the end?

Have I taken my life ...

The easil is set,

My blank canvas ready to become the world

My brushes are displayed,

All I need is paint

I open the drawer,

Start sifting through

Blues, greens, reds

Every shade, every emotion

Is represented in this collection

The landscape I have in my head

Is ready to be brought to life,

I’ve selected my colors and brushes,

Now I give my heart to the canvas

I pick a brush and coat it with g...

The weight of this secret

Appears on the scale

I walk around to lose it

But what I see

Just gives me more

Exhausting expectations

Add to the flames

Of my insecurities

That burn my mind and soul

I gasp for just a little air,

And ethereal hiatus that promises refuge,

But am always denied it

I grow heavier and heavier

Every damn day

With the weight

Of these thoughts

And this secret

Even when I co...

When the clock strikes midnight

And I’ve retired to my slumber,

My heart escapes and takes flight

Ascending to a world of wonder

I travel to realms beyond my own,

Jumping on clouds as I go

My private refuge, yet I don’t feel alone

A dreamland the opposite of faux

I dance on the stars,

My dreams play the most ethereal song

Who knew a place so far

Would be where I truly belong

All is forgotten be...

The current runs quickly and slowly simultaneously. The black, stinging liquid represents all perceptions of time. Some believe they have too little, some believe too much. Time can hit you like a train, or trap you in an inescapable cage.

I used to think I was a prisoner of time. Every day was slower than the last; a bunch of time wasted. I’d had a plethora of time compared to people I knew. Pe...

Calories

Cal ories

C a l o r i e s

I wonder how many

Calories

Are in the word

Calorie

Or its definition:

The unit of measurement

For how much energy

Food

Gives

You

The word gnaws

Like a broken, vitriolic record

Incessantly

At my brain

240 in this bagel,

95 in that apple

Sustenance becomes

Numbers seasoned with

Guilt

I use up

So many calories

Just thinking of

Calories

I am buried alive

Crushed...