The frustration of longing

It’s like you’re never listening

No matter what I say

But your eyes are glistening

I’m sorry I couldn’t be all you expected of me

It’s so hard to accept

I’ll never be the perfect man

Long drive home

But your arms don’t feel the same

Here it goes

Out the window

It’s all for show

It’s like pulling out the rug

From under my own feet

No matter how hard I stand

I’ll alwa...

I block out all the noise

Wait for

Everything here in you

To be free

Clear the

Battlefield of noise

To meet you out in the field

Of wonder

Kill the noise

Before it kills you

Block it out

And sift through

What makes us whole again

It’s you

I care for

It’s you

I long for

It’s you

It’s you

Laid down to waste

Everything down here is but a bitter taste

I long

For

The world to catch up instea...

It’s Christmas Day

The anxiety is killing me

I’m Christmas Day

Eating me alive

How could I live up to what they wanted me to be

How could I live up to what was expected of me

Breathe in breathe out

Don’t let them know what happens now

As the oxytocin enters my bloodstream

It’s fine I can’t be

What they expected of me

Inhibited by self loathing

The blood from my wrist seeps through this clothing

...

Tell me the truth

It’s not that hard

I’ll turn away my face

Let the mind begin to race

Tell me the truth

It’s here I know so we’ll

But here you escape to hell

As well

I

Am

In hell

As far as I can tell

I left my mind

I’m the wishing well

You can’t wait to hear

It call it’s here to tell

You I’m sorry

I’m sorry

But when I turn my face to black

Your body interacts

To sorrow

To sorrow

Get a grip ...

I have no words to say

You wont be here to stay

I have a living breathing

Heart split in two

You’ve got my body

With nothing to prove

The red spills to blue

It seems you have to

Keep your mind inside

Why can’t I say

You’re not in the grey

In the black and not turning back

The stream of blood

Bleeds into the mind

But your curves are so divine

Here into now

I can’t wear a frown

I came to say

I’...

My body dying

The world whispering

Whispering

I plant the seed to go

I can’t see anything anyways

I can’t escape this hell

When will you see the way I bleed?

My body covering covering

The way I see the light

Can we slow down?

For just a little while

I can’t go now

These four walls hold me in this chair

What does it mean?

The way my body breathes

What does it mean?

The way I can’t hear

Please ...

On the edge

Staring down

At the cliff

Am I all that’s left

Down the barrel of a loaded gun

Says the man to his son

Leave me here

It’s not worth it

I’m not here to fear you

I’m here to let you go

As we fall from the edge together

It seems like tomorrow isn’t here

It won’t come

My life

It’s come undone

This game is done

My song is sung

The prize I keep

For myself

Is not for you

But for myself

I’...

Listening to my heart instead of my head

Makes me feel like I’m better off dead

All the spinning

The trials

I’m the afternoon

My eyes and my ears

Swell like balloons

Heart is raked

At a pressing pace

My head it aches

My heart it breaks

Can we forget everything we said yesterday?

We can call it a mistake for where we lay

Can we forget all the lies and fights

We can forget it all to save ourselv...

Lost, feeding on the heartless hero

Here to take the monstrous heathen

Long drives

Long nights

Late fights

Foresight

Prejudicial partnerships

I was your anti hero

The monster was indispensable

I fought I borrowed

Sold and stole

For what I could never afford

On the floor

It becomes so cold

The hero beats it out for more

The monster was here and now

God can you find out how

I was never the offe...

In another place in time

She’s lost inside

The wheels retract

And let out a deafening sigh

She was never meant for this world

I can’t say she’s getting old

Clearly a dime a dozen

Her heart is buzzing

When will she see

That she’s not where she’s mean to be

It’s here in time

Where it all unwinds

Some times she’s in trouble

The world had made her out to be a terrible thing

But cuz fx doin

s she b...