I am the changing tide

The cliff that dives

The starting line

I can’t keep running

I need to work

To fix myself

I hate this word

I could kill myself

If I had more motivation

But I can’t bring myself to do it

I am paralyzed in self doubt

With the house burning

The wheel keeps turning

I’m trapped inside

With no way out

There’s no windows In this room

But smoke pours in

Through the cracks in the hallways

The fire closes in

Almost in my 30s

Is this the end

I can’t regret when I can’t be born again

Did I fuck my life up?

Is it too late?

The world we live in

Is too close to hells gate

The good that comes

I can’t appreciate

Because I’m trapped inside

My own self doubt

And clinging to the lack of a way out

I can’t forgive

I can’t forget

It’s been two years

Have I lost my way

I can’t forget

I can’t forget

I need to change

Do something new

Every day

To feel rewarded

How do people do it?

Find the motivation to live

With a dead end job

That doesn’t pay the bills