In the last few years it has become painfully obvious that I only had one chance at ever being happy, leaving. I arose this morning, sore and wore out from sobbing into my pillow until the empty void that is sleep swallowed me whole only to regurgitate me. “Well fuck- I woke up again” my inner monologue groans. I gather what I have left of my will to live and shleck down the stairs. My parents had...

In California there is so much light pollution you can hardly see the sky.

A distinct smell of fumes from factories and vehicles making it almost inevitable to develop a breathing condition

The people piling up on the sidewalks, thrown away like yesterday’s garbage. Belongings strewn around as if they are in their living room.

Liquor stores on every corner, where high school kids loiter. sca...

Being a mom is amazing

Being a wife is amazing

I’m still entirely myself

I’m not drowning in to do lists

I’m not treading water with payments and bills

I’m not yearning for myself before I was either.

When I was me. When the bathroom was a sacred place for me to escape with my thoughts. For a time when all I knew was my creativity and its endless bounds. When I had someone in my corner that I K...