It’s been a while since I’ve felt

Been a while since I connected

Been so long since I’ve felt connected, accepted, validated

Existing, moment to moment, hour to hour, day to day

Just here - not really understanding the why

Not really feeling the reason

Do I feel reason now - not really

Just a gentle push against habits formed over a lifetime

A challenge of thinking

A challenge of perception

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I wander, aimlesssly, directionless

Nothing to see - no truly, nothing can be seen

The air is thick with moisture

A covering of white, grey, pale blue smothers the landscape

Like a cool blanket it lays over everything and anything recogniseable

Rendering each step a step into the unknown

No sense of direction

No star, sun, or moon to plot my course by

Just a cool embrace providing sanctuary

A re...

It’s those early years that are so full of life and promise

Those early years where errors and failures mean growth

We fall

We get up again

We fall

We get up

We fall

There’s someone there to catch or encourage us

We grow older

We grow more rigid… in mind and body

The fear of failing beckons and overtakes us

We fall

There’s no one there

We fall

We stay down

We fall

We learn to stay down

I don’t w...

Is there anything as comforting as silence - no pressure no demands no distraction… just you and your thoughts. But the pleasure often ends in the pain of getting lost in thought, not always positive thought, but the spiralling of the mind down an imaginary conversation. Resolving a long unsaid argument in your head with words that will never be heard by friend or foe. Silence, is to embrace the f...