It’s been a while since I’ve felt

Been a while since I connected

Been so long since I’ve felt connected, accepted, validated

Existing, moment to moment, hour to hour, day to day

Just here - not really understanding the why

Not really feeling the reason

Do I feel reason now - not really

Just a gentle push against habits formed over a lifetime

A challenge of thinking

A challenge of perception

A challenge of habit

A slow awakening of how I’ve become

What I’ve become

How I’ve succumbed

To the lack

To the lesser

To the inadequacy of me… of being

Waking slowly, but still… waking

Learning to challenge

Learning to break chains

Learning to break age-old ways of thinking of being

I’m awakening - the slumber, the hibernation is over and a new life, a new dawn is breaking.