Belonging doesn’t mean whatever this is,

This stomach pit of guilt drowning me in sorrow

It doesn’t mean bedridden for the inconveniences I cause to others

Not when they don’t care.

But what if they will care when they find out?

The secret I’ve kept was spilt with the blood from my heart,

A deadly betrayal from my own dear friend

Who told a secret not hers to tell.

And now I’ll pay the price.

To...

The tidal wave crash of reality

A dolly zoom in real time

Burning sweat of laughing onlookers

Stand waving banners inside my head.

How did I get here?

And why can I not escape?

Every bead of sweat, every line on my brow,

I drown in my insecurities,

The things I had prided myself on all seem so

Embarassing, silly, childish.

The frozen moment slowly restarts,

But my head - my heart - doesn’t follow...

My airpods blur heavy metal,

My throat thirsty for caffine,

Like a wanderer in the desert,

But I’ve found my life source at last.

I stumble into the shop,

A tinkering bell my welcomer.

My cargos trail as I saunter in,

Lost in coffee withdrawal and music.

A slam to my face like a door in a fight,

Textbooks flying like cartoon stars.

Apologising, I lift them and ignore

Our touching hands as I pas...

It wasn’t like in the movies. The music didn’t stop, no one froze as if time itself had been halted by this moment, this grand alingment of the stars.

When my eyes lay sight on you, the world exploded. Like two neuton stars, I knew at once our love would be disastrous. The world could collapse, but why would I care? The universe lit up, our accidental collision so catastrophically gorgeous. Like...