I’ve created a monster, one to call my own

I’ve created a monster who lives in my home

He hides in my closet and under my bed

A lot of the time he lives inside of my head

I take him everywhere with me

Vacations, walks, work, and even to the beach

And while I’m working, he does his work too

Doing any and everything to my head, that I’ll allow him to do

Everywhere I go, he comes along

He’s even with...

Why do I feel this way

It wasn't even this bad during my first heartbreak

I just want you close to me,in my arms

But you're just so far away, out of reach

And now my heart is locked away, in a cage

Simply because it's easier for me

And i know I keep suppressing the feelings i have

It's truly depressing

Keeping my heart away in a cell

And I know I do that so well

I'd rather not hurt myself anymor...

All in a golden afternoon, under the skies of cloudless blue

And I’m standing here staring back at you

Your beautiful brown eyes

The sun reflects off of your melanated skin

Your voice so rich, always draws me in

Looking at you, I’m mesmerized

Each time I see you it’s almost like a surprise

Like I don’t know what to expect

Anytime I’m around you I’m on cloud nine

You’re just so perfect

Your energy...

The beauty of intimacy

It’s just such a rare sight to see

And no I’m not just talking sexually

It’s something more spiritual you’ll see

A connection so deep

A love so strong and so sweet

It’s the type of love that will actually make you think

A love so pure and so true

It very commonly gets misconstrued

Intimacy doesn’t just revolve around one thing

I know that one thought can keep reoccurring

...

They say “When the time comes, be ready”

Well how do I know when that time has come?

I stay ready, but nothing good comes along

I just need time to breathe and think

Relax and let everything sink in

It’s hard to get ready when I constantly feel like I’m sinking

This weight of my heart is getting too heavy, it may be compromising my thinking

I’m trying to get ready for the good but negativity has...

The smell of your cologne

The darkness of your hair

I know i should just leave you alone

We probably shouldn’t go there

I know you’re not good for me and you shouldn’t be around

But there’s something about you that shows me you’ll always be down

I love hearing your voice and the way that you speak

Sometimes it causes me to be weak in the knees

Especially when i know you’re speaking to no one but ...

Here I am with once again expressing my love for you

You’re the only love I’ve ever had so true

But sometimes the connection gets misconstrued

Sometimes you don’t think things through

We have the same talks

And Lord knows its no walk in the park

Its almost as scary as being in the dark

It’s almost as bad as having a broken heart

Having this type of miscommunication sucks

Sometimes this shit just...

Wearing shades, they act as an aid to cover how desperate i am for someone to love me

The real me not just the one i allow you to see

You could never understand just how much is covered by fear

How much I’m scared to show

It covers the ability i have to grow

There’s so many things left unclear

If you really knew me, all of me would you stick around?

There’s still so much of me left to be found

A...

If wishes fell like rain, then I am certainly a storm

I’ve been wishing for the perfect life for far too long

But that life has yet to come along

And now here I am far too gone

I yearn for a life that I just can’t afford

A love that I’ve always adored

Something so easy to obtain but yet so far away

It almost feels like something leading me astray

If wishes fell like rain, then I am certainly a s...

The smell of fresh cut grass

The feeling of the wind on my skin

The smell of the new flowers growing in

The sound of the birds singing

Hearing the kids play

I can’t think of a better way to spend my day

Reading that first chapter

Writing a new page

Playing a new song

Feeling a different age

The warm sun on your skin

Feeling peace from within

Living a new life

Everything feels right

The summe...