It’s all a blur. i rub my eyes but it doesn’t clear, i can’t get out of this now. The frosty screens is frozen over. The smell of sharp coldness spirals up my nostrails and creates a burning sensation. I chattering all around me like jingling of bells but the noises are getting closer and further and closer and further. I feel my lifeless body ripping left right left right. It’s messing with my m...

I’m trying, I’ve tried, I’ll try. I really do, i really have, i really will. The thoughts dawned on me almost like when some one says ‘Oi move‘ and for seconds after you just have to think ´did i do something wrong, what did i do?ˋ even the thought of leaving this monstrous, comforting, terrifying, addictive situation makes me crumble into pieces. The pressure balance on top of my head like a pile...