Once I got your number things changed

A lot of things.

And not in a bad way

They helped me.

I stopped looking for validation through people

Instead I felt confident in who I am.

The Pinterest boards called

Date ideas

Couple stuff

Started being created

Excitement

And then next thing I know

I remember we can’t do those

Because you live 3 hours away

Not talking to people all day turned into texting you often

Worried I’m annoying you turned into grins when I saw you responded

My prayers for confidence turned into prayers of gratitude

My type went from brunettes with brown eyes to strawberry blond with piercing blue

the height was the same

As the characters I love

And then suddenly something was off

Another thing changed

Your texts turned dry

Part of me on the inside

Curled up

And hid

Because I felt like an abandoned little kid

Theee months later we still haven’t talked

Not sure why you stopped

But I still said happy birthday

Because I remember how much

It meant to you to know

You’re loved.