CW: sh and attement and vent angst type stuff about the drama that happened to me and why I haven’t been writing lately not in full detail of what happened (other than school)

If only I didn’t have to go through what happened

I didn’t have to help someone who won’t get help

I shouldn’t felt I was used to date that person

I didn’t

They said i was the only one that they trusted

It felt like they used me

I tried and tried to help them

But soon I blocked them

And then my life was free

It felt different

I soon emailed the counselor on them

I don’t how they are doing

But to be honest I don’t care

It’s sad to think about

But they didn’t text me if they could rant

They just did

I was not in the best state when it happened

I would have breakdowns and they would text while I am not ok

They kept saying of ways to sh and attempt

Said they did

They never listened to my tips to help

It got really bad for a few days

Then after our school dance

They complemented me and then went saying om how they need to find jacket so they can sh

It went like that

Alll the time

And this person doesn’t make feel good at all

They make me feel uncomfortable to be around them

I am glad I blocked them but we are unfortunately in the same grade

If only I had told someone sooner

If only I was able to help

If only

If only I could change the way things are

But I can’t change what happened and now here I am

I don’t talk to them much and I won’t at all cause with all what happened

I don’t want to think about it anymore