**_"Oh, I don't know what you're going through
You don't have to walk alone, I'll follow you
All the highs and lows, I'll ride them with you
You don't have to walk alone, I'll follow you"

_**

I didn't fully comprehend just what I was getting myself into. All I knew was that I couldn't expect people to have it all together when I didn't have that myself. It was a part of me that made it easy to overlook the flaws in others. Especially when I was flawed myself.

In those moments it didn't matter what was missing. There wasn't anything that could be done. It felt like a wait for something that was never going to happen. Honestly, it never did. It's times like this where you just want someone there. Whether that be platonic or romantic. It didn't matter.

Sometimes we choose people out of loneliness. It was better than nothing at all. A slight comfort during times of mutual emptiness. This is _not_ how good connections are made. When problems weigh heavy and you don't know what to do with yourself. You don't know how you're going to get through your days but you have someone who will stay with you for a while.

This is better known as codependency. It's what most of my friendships are based off of. After some time I realized it was better to be by myself. I was better company than anyone else. Learning to be alone was the best thing I did. I no longer feel the need to be around people just to have someone. I've learned it's better to have nothing at all.

All I've ever sat with in company was what I needed at the time but I didn't need that anymore. I walked my path alone in whatever direction life decided to pull me. It was so quiet that I could clearly hear my own thoughts. Then I fell in love with a peaceful and calm silence. It's what I truly needed at that point in my life. My days filled with more than anyone else could ever give me.