To my past self,

Don’t ever lose your light.

You’ll struggle through so, so, so much

You’ll wonder why everyone seems so against you

You still wonder why your family doesn’t seem to even like you

No one but your dad, as always

It’s going to sound really bad, but you have a ton of crushes. Stop going for guys; stop going for them. They will come to you

I know you end up despising karate & you quit, but omygod please don’t go & delete all the contacts from your phone. You will regret that during the summer after junior year… aka yesterday.

You’ll argue w/ Mom abt how she suggested you write songs bc you like writing & singing, & while your argument is very valid (songwriting is really not the same thing as writing novels/novellas), you start writing songs as another coping mechanism in 7th grade to get through a huge heartbreak, & then you never stop.

You’ll meet so many new people who you love & who love you (in a platonic, close friends way), but you’ll also lose so many people who you thought were your friends. & it’s going to really freaking suck, but DO NOT WHATEVER YOU DO, DO NOT DO ANYTHING RASH. You won’t, but PLEASE I’m begging you don’t give in to those thoughts.

You will hate yourself at some point, despite the screenshot you send to one of your close friends in the very beginning of the summer (comment on a YouTube video (kind of joking) reminding LGBTQIA+ people not to hate themselves or they’re homophobic). Talk to GF (those are initials). Bother him. Tell him. Everything. He has made it abundantly clear that you can always talk to him, spam him, call him (though he might not answer), bother him, whatever. You are not a burden to him. No matter whether you let yourself believe that or not.

You will make it out of there alive. Don’t succumb to the thoughts.

That’s all I have, little one.

I love you (I do as of this moment)

Forever & always,

Luna ❤️