_(I know that some people are uncomfortable with some topics I write below. I don’t usually put a warning, but I’m trying to be better)_

Never have I ever wanted to kill someone

No, that was a lie

Can’t seem to hide myself

Hadn’t stopped myself from slipping up today

Neither of them knew what I was saying

Nevertheless, they got worried

“No!…you can’t be a sadist, Hollow!”

Couldn’t do anything else but shake my head: “Of course not.”

Not? Maybe so

No-one will ever know

Can’t be a sadist—

No I can’t

“Can’t have all those things wrong with you, Hollow.” My mummy said.

“Don’t lie to me—you already got autism.” My mummy said. “There’s nothing wrong with you, sweetheart.”

Haven’t told you everything, Mum!

Don’t you wanna hear, Mummy?

Never have I ever wanted lick up beads of blood

Haven’t I?

Shan’t taste other’s though

No—I’ll wait for the next time I fall

Couldn’t I do it though?

Couldn’t I hurt someone?

Never ever—I almost did it today

Hadn’t even had a problem with him…until he started taunting me

“…won’t you do it! You won’t!” He said.

“Never she shall do it,” I heard, “She’s too skinny, to frail.”

Isn’t it bad I wanted to kill him

Can’t say it was even my last thought

No—it was my first

_Didn’t_ you feel bad?

No.

Not one bit. Remorse evaded me.

_(I wanted to kick in in his chest—_

_To stomp on him until he bled_

_To tear out strands of his hair until he screamed!)_

But Honey Bear and Diva were right there

Shan’t do it—I won’t

Couldn’t stop myself from watching him from my peripheral

Couldn’t stop myself from wishing—WAITING—for him to strike

Don’t know the full extent of my brain…I really don’t

Never do I want to do these things

Wouldn’t hurt me—it would hurt my family

Nevermind…I feel a lot better now

Never have I ever killed someone

No—and I’d like to keep it that way