after squatting over the city park’s public restroom toilet,

the room begins to _spin_

it feels as though _my eyes are trembling_

& my ears are pierced with ringing

pure panic rushes through my body

i quickly go outside to where my friends are waiting for me

“guys. something is wrong. im dizzy, i cant walk right now.

where’s jackie? **please**. get jackie, please.”

i fall against the wall & my body glides down to the floor

_the left side of my body begins to tingle_

i can _no longer feel my finger tips_

_my vision loses itself_

along the waves of this episode my body desperately wants to end

my friend pulls the car to us

& _i lose complete control of each step_ that i take

accidentally stepping on my friends feet

stumbling to safety

knowing there are eyes watching me

lose myself to this storm