On my own searching

Clumps of hair falls out every time I run my fragile hands through

Sinking into your soul

Visions going blurry

I want to restart

Static pulsing through my veins

My ears are shot, they just ring

You’re paranoid

I want to restart

Going back through temptation

Your head drops and swings.

You wanted things to change.

You’re paranoid.

Staring down

Going numb

You’re paranoid.

The needle feels better

Your living for the thrill

It fills a void deep down

Your diaphragm gets filled with poison

Eyes shaking

Your knees buckle trying to get up

To finally be a parent.

The phone is ringing you can’t stand it

You try

But fail

Your lungs are punctured

Bleeding through your ribs

Death keeps cheating on my life

Your child has to pick up your used needles

Only to grow up and do the same thing

We all look the same in the dark.