The weight of this secret

Appears on the scale

I walk around to lose it

But what I see

Just gives me more

Exhausting expectations

Add to the flames

Of my insecurities

That burn my mind and soul

I gasp for just a little air,

And ethereal hiatus that promises refuge,

But am always denied it

I grow heavier and heavier

Every damn day

With the weight

Of these thoughts

And this secret

Even when I consume

Absolutely nothing

This secret becomes my world

And like Atlas,

I am crumbling under

The weight of it

And these chains follow me

Everywhere

Wrapping around my ankles and wrists

And just pulling me under and closer

To the scale

Forcing the number to go up

Against my will