You know to this day I didn’t think I’d be at gunpoint from the love of my life. God, I thought she trusted me and I trusted her but here we are. she’s crying still has that gun pointed right at my chest. This doesn’t affect me in anyway I’ve had a gun held at me many times it’s just different this time. Somebody I love holding it, threatening to kill me. if I take one step one wrong move guess I’ll be partying with the devil. I eye my surrounding seeing if there’s anything that can help nothing looks like a can, but then I focussed back on the gun, her hand, shaking crying. “ liv put the gun down” she shakes her head in a motion to say no. “ come on please, I love you.” “No “ she says whell tears are rolling down her cheek “no, I won’t put it down. I know who you are what type of monster you are” “monster.. she thinks I am a monster” I whisper to my self I chuckle “you know I only became that monster to protect you. To save you but it that’s what you think of me go head pull the trigger” she looks at me wide eyes “fucking pull your trigger and shoot me” I start to walk slowly. I walk till the barrel of the gun hits my stomach and push it up towards my heart “pull the trigger liv, do it now” i stay sturnly “ if you can’t drop the gun” I say out softly. As I saw the safety was srill on. Putting a hand on to her face caressing her check wiping away her tears. “Come on my love, you know I would never hurt you” I say out lowly “but you did” a quiver in her voice “you lied, you said you where done working with them, and yet I find out that’s where you are on late nights when you leave me here all alone and in a cold bed.” She says voice braking “it’s not fair, you don’t know how it feels” she lowers the gun, the piece of medal slipping through her fingers clattering to the ground. As I hear it drop I pull her into a hug.” I am sorry, I truly am.. but it’s not that easy to get out and I have been trying over and over again but they keep pulling me in one way or another” I say with a huge sigh. I take my hand and tilt her head to look up at me to look her in the eyes. “ please forgive me liv, I love you so much and your the only thing keeping me from losing my humanity completely, I need you in my life. You are my life, my world and my one” I say a slight quiver in my words. I see thr thoghts behind her eyes swirling coming in one side going out the other racing at an incredible pace. I close my eyes and put my forehead to hers as I whisper out “please I need you forever and always, I will be here for you the best I can “