Family starts with blood but that isn't what it means !

They say you'll fight to make things right even if i takes all night .

Family doesn't sit there and stare they really care .

They will be by your side through the good and bad .

See i have a sister that would rather put her mister before me .

Yes i do love her but she hurt me , she tore the trust i had before .

I was thrown to the pits and was left to believe it was earned .

That was the lesson i learned that truth will turn to ash if you lash out .

I'm not gonna say i made the right choice .

It partly my fault for not using my voice .

I ran away but sometimes i wish i stayed .

My identity was stolen in a raid .

I was never prepared to be alone

To walk a path i was never shown .

A relentless ride maybe ill hide .

I cried and lost my pride .

So many people have tried to help carry the load .

But i'm too scared for them to struggle to see my road .

This pain isn't something you can load on a screen to delete the screams.

You cant crack the code if i'm not ready to trust i guess i miss myself before the lust.

The way he played were you laid .

The way he promised if you spoke he would coat your throat in red.

I was petrified of ending up dead so i ran away instead .

Hear me out would anyone risk there own life for another if they stare down a knife ?

I was in no state to face the truth too afraid it wouldn't soothe

I waited until it was too late to share my fate .

Honestly i didn't realize how one action could leave me in dread.

The way it play the scene in my head especially when i'm in bed.

It stole the very peace i was supposed to own like it took residence in my home .

They say friends are the family you choose and sometime even them you loose.

Honesty can never be rushed it should only be told to those you trust .

Remember it shouldn't be pushed to receive even if they try to deceive .

So tell me how do i trust when my heart was crushed ?