Almost two years ago

I joined an app

I was 13

Still in middle school

Not really as educated as I am now

My friend had shown the app to me

It was something involving writing

Writing and prompts and community

I was intrigued

I wrote my first poem

(Questionable writing might I say)

And my first comment

Was from someone named … Queen

And said “Welcome to the community”

I had no idea who this was

But it was cool

To see someone reply to my writing

My safe space

I checked out their profile

Their aesthetic

Their writing

It was cool

I didn’t understand it

But I liked it

Months past

News was shared

From the friend

…Queen disappeared

The followers were worried

I was worried

The friend was worried

…Mind was worried

The most out of all of us

And with good reason

There were so many questions

So much confusion

Many web searches

Nothing found

No news

Silence and sadness

Just empty

As more time passed

And ages increased

I proceeded to check

And check again

With no more news

I started going on the app less and less

Every month

Every two

Always keeping them in the back of my mind

But they slowly started to fade

As life started to suffer

And become empty

The app almost never got opened again

My phone almost never got opened again

As another year of age surprisingly came upon me

The app opened up again

The stories started to write themselves

And the following button got pressed

Reminding me of the first person to comment on my work

I check

Not expecting anything

But just to see

And there’s a post

From …Mind

Saying they are back

I reread the last post from …Queen

Of which confused me when they left

But now makes perfect sense

And resonates with me well

There is a breath

Not from me

But from the outside world

Filling up the space

That got lost when the Queen was lost

The scars on my forearm

Heal a little

At the sound of the breath

That I didn’t think I’d ever hear

Nor understand why the breath sounds of a panicked relief

As the story finishes

Thank you Queen

For sharing your stories

To those who are hurting

Thank you Mind

For updating

And hearing our suspended breaths

Thank you fellow worriers and suffers

Who also follow the mind and the Queen

Who also got impacted by their words

I hope the two can see

The lives they impacted

How much they got me to think

How they shaped a whole community with words

So please share on

Tell the followers

The worriers

The suffers

The Queen

The Mind

**Dedicated to Shadow Queen and Shadow Mind**