Wishing frequently for the happiness I’m searching for

Looking for answers within writings and people

Never satisfied when good things are happening to me

Only seeing trouble and difficulties

If I saw my day in a happier light

If I smiled all warm and bright

If I gave my very best

And If I can please everyone else

Would I still be me or not at all

Would I be lost by looking at someone who isn’t me?

Would I be grateful and motivated by positivity instead?

This uncertainty this negativity

If I can be a brighter person

And preferred a more lighter shade than grey

Would I find my happiness?

And choose to be comfortable choosing me when need to be

And saying no when I need to when it’s the right choice to do?

If I can change the mistakes I have made

Would my life still be the same?

The past is in the past they say

But that part still lingers in me everyday

In my mind, when I’m trying to sleep

It’s best to move on they say

It’s best to look at the present

When the future is too scary to look at

What else could we do in the time being

Time flies by too quickly

Scared of the current speed it goes at

I’m scared my life will flash before my eyes and it will be over

This rare emotion and feeling

This moment this being life

A rollercoaster with its ups and downs

If I can accept it all

And go with the flow

Like a wave of water or a blooming flower

Beautiful on the outside and inside

Like a butterfly

Seeing its change from beginning to end

If only I can be happy that would be great