_(Barkity. Have a great day!)_

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***TW: Suicidal thoughts, trust issues, and sh are mentioned and/or implied in this story. Please do not read or read with caution if these may trigger you. Your mental health matters. Ily <3***

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Is it necessary to

Promise

Me something and

Not follow through?

Was that in a

Parenting guide you read?

Why promise if

You won’t follow through?

Is it wrong to question you

When you are the one who

Forgets?

It’s not about the

Boba or festival!

It’s about how I

Can’t trust anything you say

Anymore.

People say,

“It’s the little things that count!”

When they are the ones to

Lie about little things.

“I promise I’ll take you to the library.”

Turns into

“Oh, I’ll take you Friday.”

“I promise I’ll take you for boba this weekend!”

Turns to

“Oh, you actually remembered…? I was hoping you’d forget.”

And

“We’ll take you down to that festival tonight.”

Turns to

“Oh no! I forgot, why didn’t you remind me?”

Because I feel like

An ungrateful bitch

When I remind you of your promises

Because

You are busy

And I’ll be the burden.

I don’t even

Mention things to

You anymore

Because

I don’t feel like

I can trust you anymore.

I am now “easy”,

I don’t complain,

I am normally quite,

I don’t mention broken promises,

I don’t say that I go to sleep

Hoping I don’t wake up in the morning,

I don’t speak of the

Self-inflicted scars

That lie on my legs and thighs.

I try not to be a burden,

But oh, the amount of money wasted on me!

And the pain I cause others!

Also the anxiety and frustration I have started.

Maybe, it’d be better without me.

But, we won’t know

Because I made a promise,

Not to biological family,

No!

Those promises are always broken.

Instead, I made a promise to my

True family, my friends,

But mainly

My butterfly.

Betrayal hurts like

Trust issues and suicidal thoughts,

But true family can ease the pain

With just their presence.