To younger me , i wish you could spend more time living carelessly for the future is no fairy tale more an uneasy sea with waves aiming to steal your shine even though you try to be fine .

you'll struggle to mend relationship with family members due to argument your unable to defend . So you leave your heart to grieve and cover your arms with sleeves .

You'll learn to show less but avoid looking too depressed so you paint a smile , as you stain blood on a tile . Every day will be a battle as you go through the motions of uncontrollable emotions .

You'll be a victim of a crime of an action that steals your time , with flashback so intense that can replay on any given day . You'll wonder why , you even have to try !

You struggle to get out and about so worried by past memories that seem to shout .

You let so many people go of trust that seemed to blow .

There so many people who believe but you just struggle to breath to even care because this existence just doesn't seem fair .