Are You?
Lying in bed at night
Staring at the mattress above me
Crying silently so I won’t worry her
Are you crying too?
Lying in bed at night
Staring at the mattress above me
Wondering where you are
Are you looking for us?
Lying in bed at night
Staring at the mattress above me
Hoping I’ll see you again
Are you even still alive?
Lying in bed at night
Pushing the mattress with my feet
Quiet laughter comes from above
Are you… never mind.
You’re not here, but she is, and so am I
At least we’re together
I don’t know what I’d do if we weren’t
Are you alone?
…is it bad that I hope you are?
(If you aren’t, that means you’ve moved on)
(I don’t want you to move on)
Please tell me I’m still important
(Not that it matters much)
Tell me she’s still important
(She matters more)
Of course I care about myself too
(That’s a lie. I’ve gotten good at lying)