When I look into the mirror I don’t see me I see a person who looks like me but not quite me she has bags under her eyes like she hasn’t slept for a while, she had hair like me but it’s weird and a different texture all messed up and just straight up wrong she has the same body as me but more skinner she looks so bad like she has been steppped on or rooled around in the trash I keep telling my self “that can’t be me, that’s isn’t me “or maybe it is me honestly I’ve lost sense of my self over the years felt so ynumb and and so tired felt like I was dead just a ghost floating around so I stare dead straight into the eyes of my reflection and honestly it scares and before I even get a chance to move it feels like I’m being sucked in like I’m drowning in darkness I try to claw my way out but every chance i get to try and push my way up somehow I end up way deeper than before so I stopped trying and let it become me I was so consumed by the darkness that I didn’t realize that I was also pushing people away from me I had becomed what I had feared and it slowly ate at me destroying every good part let in me till I was this cold and empty person I had nothing to live for I was lost and in the process I lost everyone I was alone meaning I had no one to help me get out of what I had put my self in I was losing my mind, loosing motivation to keep going on I just kept getting hurt and hurt and hurt, but no one ever noticed because I just smiled and laughed but inside I was dying I was crying for help but no one ever cared enough to notice, but I don’t blame them bc even I wasnt strong enough to help my self everyone goes through something but it’s what you do about it that matters and in this case i did nothing but let it destroy me

at the beginning when I said that the person in the mirror wasn’t me I LIED.