You've always been mine.

Since the day on the playground when our souls became intertwined.

The day I was hearbroken from my first love, and you came over and listened to my cries.

We always had love.

We called it platonic.

Denied claims that it was something more.

It became sort of ironic.

How we kissed- but in a freinds way of course.

And we would choose each other over anyone but could never be anything more.

The idea seemed so disgusting; worse than a chore.

But the day you found someone, a pit in my stomach formed.

I would never be your lover but i'd be jealous of them.

Which I mean in a completely platonic way?

As the years progressed and I began to have sex, I learned the whole platonic story was a lie, because when i was loosing my innocence to him i only ever imagined you.

But you had a girlfriend, our freindship was in bloom.

Years passed by, I couldnt love anyone but you- I tried telling myself I was over you but that was never true.

You told me you were getting married.

I lied and said i was happy for you.

but that could never be true.

how could i be happy that you're getting married, legally signing your soul to yours when all the years i've waited and waited for you.

i faked my excitement, as the day came closer you became more and more thrilled, i pretended too but it hurt like hell.

the day of the wedding came.

you're getting ready to walk down the aisle.

until you're bride to be came into your room and sat you down.

confessed to her mistakes from the night before.

tears escaped your eyes.

you ran to me.

told me she's not worth marrying, the only thing she's good at is infidelity.

i hugged you

told you it would all be okay.

i felt awful.

i did. send my cousin her way.

but she had the choice

she choose the wrong one.

i saved him because of her disgusting choices she disguised as mistakes.

so i was there for him

day by day

week by week

month by month

untill he was ready to love again.

and this time his love, was with me.

and not platonically.

that filthy mistake from his ex finance saved my life, and i don't think i could ever feel bad for opening his beautiful brown eyes to me; his love of his life.

his forever loyal wife.