i don’t know what to do

the one med that kept me together,

kept me eating,

kept me being normal…

they’re taking it out

what do i do then,

when i don’t want to eat?

how do i function?

i cant return to the old me

i cant cant cant do that

please dont let me do that

don’t let me go back into my shell

don’t don’t don’t

don’t let me do that

i’m doing so well

i have extracurriculars

i have more friends

i have confidence

what if it all goes away

what if i can’t do it?

then what?

let me hollow out,

let the weight drop from my bones,

let the confidence get blown in the wind,

the flowers in my lungs aren’t choking me anymore

but without the help

they may choke me up again

i can’t afford to fail

i can’t afford the side effects

i have a plan

i have a purpose

don’t take that from me

please don’t take that from me